exodus....!DELAYED!
well...after an insane day yesterday (walking to the post office w/ 30lbs of boxes to ship, getting 2 calls from last-minute subletters, rushing to finish packing and get out of the house and give the keys to the subletter, a quick dinner at philthy's w/ alex wang, n then a night chillin' at westcourt where i realized i forgot my glasses inside the washroom of my apartment, and then a short 2hr nap at seagram before attempting to catch my early morning flight)....here i am still in ontario, sitting in dj rumble's basement while the boys work on their recording...
in a nutshell, basically there was a crazy accident overnight that nearly shut down the 401, causing us to be stuck in traffic for over an hour, which resulted in me missing my flight. damn hmy airways...never book w/ them again! only ONE flight left for vancouver today, so the next one they can put me on is tomorrow morning, but i have to pay the difference ($250!! >=[ ) but yeah, i was way too wasted to argue much, so i guess tomorrow at check-in i'll have to give them hell...anyway, we had congee wong for lunch, so i'm satisfied at the moment...the guys say this is a "sign"...i now have 24hrs to find "true love on the east coast". bah! lol, we'll see, we'll see...
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
exodus
this is probably going to be the last post i make while still in Waterloo, but it won't be the last one i make about the 'loo. things have been totally crazy w/ packing n shipping stuff these past few days, trying to find time to hang out w/ people that i'm not sure when i'll see again, a weekend trip to Toronto, etc... so blogging has had to take a back seat to these priorities.
ima make this quick, as there have been a whole jumble of thoughts and emotions that have come at me during these last few weeks, so to try and squeeze them into a short 5-minute session wouldn't do them justice (i jotted down a few thoughts, probably take a whack at posting 'em when i get home to van city), but i wanted to get something down to document my last day in 'loo, so i thought i'd just take some quick before & after shots of my room here @ 395 Hazel:
and after the clearout...
"all my bags are packed, i'm ready to go..."
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well that's it, "the nipple's" exodus from 'loo is upon us. until the day my "adventures" bring me back, i'll leave you with these words of wisdom:
"just as wise man say knowledge is for learning and wisdom is for living, know this also; meat is for eating, nose is for picking, and a$s is for scratching! then, you shall live happy life young grasshopper..."
farewell waterloo, new adventures await...
this is probably going to be the last post i make while still in Waterloo, but it won't be the last one i make about the 'loo. things have been totally crazy w/ packing n shipping stuff these past few days, trying to find time to hang out w/ people that i'm not sure when i'll see again, a weekend trip to Toronto, etc... so blogging has had to take a back seat to these priorities.
ima make this quick, as there have been a whole jumble of thoughts and emotions that have come at me during these last few weeks, so to try and squeeze them into a short 5-minute session wouldn't do them justice (i jotted down a few thoughts, probably take a whack at posting 'em when i get home to van city), but i wanted to get something down to document my last day in 'loo, so i thought i'd just take some quick before & after shots of my room here @ 395 Hazel:
and after the clearout...
"all my bags are packed, i'm ready to go..."
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.
.
well that's it, "the nipple's" exodus from 'loo is upon us. until the day my "adventures" bring me back, i'll leave you with these words of wisdom:
"just as wise man say knowledge is for learning and wisdom is for living, know this also; meat is for eating, nose is for picking, and a$s is for scratching! then, you shall live happy life young grasshopper..."
farewell waterloo, new adventures await...
Monday, April 26, 2004
wishes really do come true
i passed!! checked my grades online today and i passed linguistics, woohoo! english and korean were posted on friday n i did alright in those 2 as well, so all that's left is social psych (the class where i saw "the girl with the skor bar"), so hopefully when that result comes in it'll be good news too. so yeah i guess wishes really do come true, as this following story also proves. i came upon this fairytale about a month ago, a touching story about a poverty-stricken peasant in a far away land, but it reminded me that there can be happy endings in this world of ours...the peasant's wish
i passed!! checked my grades online today and i passed linguistics, woohoo! english and korean were posted on friday n i did alright in those 2 as well, so all that's left is social psych (the class where i saw "the girl with the skor bar"), so hopefully when that result comes in it'll be good news too. so yeah i guess wishes really do come true, as this following story also proves. i came upon this fairytale about a month ago, a touching story about a poverty-stricken peasant in a far away land, but it reminded me that there can be happy endings in this world of ours...the peasant's wish
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
entertainment
c'est fini! (i think? my french was never that good anyway...) oh well, anyway yeah so finals are over, and sadly, so is the canuck's season...=(. on the bright side though, is the fact that we did get some amazingly entertaining hockey in this series. sure the outcome wasn't the fairytale ending we'd all hoped for, but you have to admit that the suspense and excitement that these two teams delivered to everyone watching was captivating; a pretty evenly spread out seven games - van, calgary, then van, calgary, then calgary, then van, and then finally calgary. for those who were lucky enough to watch game 6, man that must've been awesome (all i could do was listen on the radio)! 4-0, 4-4, TRIPLE OT and then 5-4 canucks? man that was a hollywood-inspired game script if i ever saw one. sure people are sad that the canuck curse has apparently still kept us from advancing, but i think vancouver fans should still be proud that we have one of the most exciting teams in the league!
anyway, so now that finals are done and my attachment to the nhl playoffs has been minimalized, i believe that it's time to get back to business. spending that special evening with those special ones whom i've neglected for the past little while: intimate relations
c'est fini! (i think? my french was never that good anyway...) oh well, anyway yeah so finals are over, and sadly, so is the canuck's season...=(. on the bright side though, is the fact that we did get some amazingly entertaining hockey in this series. sure the outcome wasn't the fairytale ending we'd all hoped for, but you have to admit that the suspense and excitement that these two teams delivered to everyone watching was captivating; a pretty evenly spread out seven games - van, calgary, then van, calgary, then calgary, then van, and then finally calgary. for those who were lucky enough to watch game 6, man that must've been awesome (all i could do was listen on the radio)! 4-0, 4-4, TRIPLE OT and then 5-4 canucks? man that was a hollywood-inspired game script if i ever saw one. sure people are sad that the canuck curse has apparently still kept us from advancing, but i think vancouver fans should still be proud that we have one of the most exciting teams in the league!
anyway, so now that finals are done and my attachment to the nhl playoffs has been minimalized, i believe that it's time to get back to business. spending that special evening with those special ones whom i've neglected for the past little while: intimate relations
Sunday, April 18, 2004
Question: "How do you prepare yourself for a final exam that you're 75% sure you're going to fail no matter how hard you study??"
well, that's something that i've been contemplating for the past 2 days as my monday morning eng306a linguistics final gets closer and closer...
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...and Closer, and CLOSER, and....AAAHHHH it's here!!
well, i've never been one to wimp out and not face things head on, but i'm seriously feeling pretty helpless for this one. i mean yeah, i've been going over notes, doing practice questions, reviewing mid-terms and stuff, but it just doesn't seem to be sticking? not sure if it has anything to do with the brain injury, i mean my OT always told me to take it easy and be wary of it, but i never wanted to make that my excuse for not succeeding. you know how it goes: "mind over matter", "brains over brawn"... but, what happens when the "mind/brains" aren't 100%? uy...but anyway, i've resolved to not overstress the noggin before an early morning exam, go home and eat a good meal =P, get a good night's rest, and most importantly, pray. i seriously don't think i do this enough.
now i'm not saying that i think it's ok to only pray out of desperation (like using God as a lifeline), and only turn to prayer as a last resort, no. rather than that, something i often forget is that prayer ought to be right up there as one of the first things i do. but time and time again, God has shown me that there is only so much that i can do by myself, for myself.
in this particular situation, it's just been so long since i've taken a look at the material, not since the last day of classes pretty much. been so busy studying for my other finals, and when i finally found time to face the laws of linguistics, i might as well have been reading a CS textbook. over and over again i read it, over and over again i forget it. the prof was a decent guy, i tried to get interested in the material (and at some points i did), but it's just so far out there. i took the course because i needed an elective, and my mom (no i'm not blaming her =P) was flippin through the calendar and goes "Oh hey, linguistics is interesting, i remember i took it in university." so i figure hey what the heck...(what was i THINKING???) ahh well, too late. my OTs had always cautioned me about the lingering effects that a TBI would have on my processing/memory/learning abilities. i've been lucky enough to have performed reasonably well (actually, miraculously well) so far by the grace of God, so i guess this may just be a final little speed bump or somethin.
well, why am i wasting all this potential "study-time" blogging? i guess it's just a good way to let out some stress, and kill time while my pasta's cooking. nothing short of a miracle is what i'm asking for here i guess if want to pass this course, but hey if i don't, no biggie. one elective, i can easily pick another one to tackle either distance ed., find an equivalent course at a university back home, or *gasp* come back to 'Loo to finish off the degree?? well, let's not prove the "self-fulfilling prophecy" that i've learned so much about in social psychology (uggh...can you believe it?! applying what i've learned??). as long as i know i've tried my best, both physically and mentally, the rest is up to Him.
so, as i sat downstairs in DC this evening, i was trying to decide whether or not to continue trying to chisel away at this "mountain" (my linguistics text) with a "chopstick" (my brain), or just call it a day and head home for some rest. i started worrying to myself about what would happen if i didn't end up passing? what if i couldn't get my degree after this term? what would i do? where would i go? how would the OT's or my parents interpret it in terms of my recovery?
well, after some brief hesitation, i slung on my backpack, headed out of DC, and hopped on my bike for the ride home. i had recalled the words of my highschool rugby coach, the words he had said to us after our team lost its first game after going undefeated for 2 consecutive years: "...life goes on."
well, that's something that i've been contemplating for the past 2 days as my monday morning eng306a linguistics final gets closer and closer...
.
.
.
.
.
.
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.
.
...and Closer, and CLOSER, and....AAAHHHH it's here!!
well, i've never been one to wimp out and not face things head on, but i'm seriously feeling pretty helpless for this one. i mean yeah, i've been going over notes, doing practice questions, reviewing mid-terms and stuff, but it just doesn't seem to be sticking? not sure if it has anything to do with the brain injury, i mean my OT always told me to take it easy and be wary of it, but i never wanted to make that my excuse for not succeeding. you know how it goes: "mind over matter", "brains over brawn"... but, what happens when the "mind/brains" aren't 100%? uy...but anyway, i've resolved to not overstress the noggin before an early morning exam, go home and eat a good meal =P, get a good night's rest, and most importantly, pray. i seriously don't think i do this enough.
now i'm not saying that i think it's ok to only pray out of desperation (like using God as a lifeline), and only turn to prayer as a last resort, no. rather than that, something i often forget is that prayer ought to be right up there as one of the first things i do. but time and time again, God has shown me that there is only so much that i can do by myself, for myself.
in this particular situation, it's just been so long since i've taken a look at the material, not since the last day of classes pretty much. been so busy studying for my other finals, and when i finally found time to face the laws of linguistics, i might as well have been reading a CS textbook. over and over again i read it, over and over again i forget it. the prof was a decent guy, i tried to get interested in the material (and at some points i did), but it's just so far out there. i took the course because i needed an elective, and my mom (no i'm not blaming her =P) was flippin through the calendar and goes "Oh hey, linguistics is interesting, i remember i took it in university." so i figure hey what the heck...(what was i THINKING???) ahh well, too late. my OTs had always cautioned me about the lingering effects that a TBI would have on my processing/memory/learning abilities. i've been lucky enough to have performed reasonably well (actually, miraculously well) so far by the grace of God, so i guess this may just be a final little speed bump or somethin.
well, why am i wasting all this potential "study-time" blogging? i guess it's just a good way to let out some stress, and kill time while my pasta's cooking. nothing short of a miracle is what i'm asking for here i guess if want to pass this course, but hey if i don't, no biggie. one elective, i can easily pick another one to tackle either distance ed., find an equivalent course at a university back home, or *gasp* come back to 'Loo to finish off the degree?? well, let's not prove the "self-fulfilling prophecy" that i've learned so much about in social psychology (uggh...can you believe it?! applying what i've learned??). as long as i know i've tried my best, both physically and mentally, the rest is up to Him.
so, as i sat downstairs in DC this evening, i was trying to decide whether or not to continue trying to chisel away at this "mountain" (my linguistics text) with a "chopstick" (my brain), or just call it a day and head home for some rest. i started worrying to myself about what would happen if i didn't end up passing? what if i couldn't get my degree after this term? what would i do? where would i go? how would the OT's or my parents interpret it in terms of my recovery?
well, after some brief hesitation, i slung on my backpack, headed out of DC, and hopped on my bike for the ride home. i had recalled the words of my highschool rugby coach, the words he had said to us after our team lost its first game after going undefeated for 2 consecutive years: "...life goes on."
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
studying makes you sick
whew...had my social psych final this afternoon, it went ok (i hope). i was cramming like mad for it these past few days; spent all day in DC yesterday, and spent the early afternoon in SLC today going over notes before taking a quick nap to recharge for the 2PM exam. left one of the essay questions blank =\, had NO CLUE what it was about, and i didn't wanna bother b.s.-ing my way through it, i was outta there in an hour. most of it was m/c, and hopefully i did ok on that part.
well in addition to all this finals stress, i got sick yesterday night!! it came outta nowhere, must've caught a chill while biking home yesterday evening or something, but yeah i just started comin down w/ these aches n pains, chills, cold sweat, upset stomache, etc... man i was trying all night to "sleep it off", drugged myself up on advil (didn't have any other medicine), but yeah this was the last thing i needed!
so there i was, all miserable sittin' in front of my computer, listening to the internet radio as the poor canucks got blanked 4-0 by the flames, which just added to my misery. ah well, we'll bounce back at home.
well, the drugs are wearing off now, i'm feelin the tingling pain/heat in my body again, but while i was feeling "better" today, after the final, i bumped into an old acquaintance. it's funny how the world works...i mean, sometimes you meet people casually, never giving a second thought as to whether or not they'll pop back into your life again. but when they do, you get this kinda feeling that there's a reason/purpose behind it, that perhaps your "chance" meeting wasn't meant to be just a one-time thing...either that, or one of you starts thinking that the other is stalking them! that, and then there's just those people who you keep bumping into that you really wish you could avoid...well enough of that. today's encounter: the krispy kreme konnection
whew...had my social psych final this afternoon, it went ok (i hope). i was cramming like mad for it these past few days; spent all day in DC yesterday, and spent the early afternoon in SLC today going over notes before taking a quick nap to recharge for the 2PM exam. left one of the essay questions blank =\, had NO CLUE what it was about, and i didn't wanna bother b.s.-ing my way through it, i was outta there in an hour. most of it was m/c, and hopefully i did ok on that part.
well in addition to all this finals stress, i got sick yesterday night!! it came outta nowhere, must've caught a chill while biking home yesterday evening or something, but yeah i just started comin down w/ these aches n pains, chills, cold sweat, upset stomache, etc... man i was trying all night to "sleep it off", drugged myself up on advil (didn't have any other medicine), but yeah this was the last thing i needed!
so there i was, all miserable sittin' in front of my computer, listening to the internet radio as the poor canucks got blanked 4-0 by the flames, which just added to my misery. ah well, we'll bounce back at home.
well, the drugs are wearing off now, i'm feelin the tingling pain/heat in my body again, but while i was feeling "better" today, after the final, i bumped into an old acquaintance. it's funny how the world works...i mean, sometimes you meet people casually, never giving a second thought as to whether or not they'll pop back into your life again. but when they do, you get this kinda feeling that there's a reason/purpose behind it, that perhaps your "chance" meeting wasn't meant to be just a one-time thing...either that, or one of you starts thinking that the other is stalking them! that, and then there's just those people who you keep bumping into that you really wish you could avoid...well enough of that. today's encounter: the krispy kreme konnection
Sunday, April 11, 2004
Easter victory
woohoo, a 2-1 victory tonight for the Canucks in game 3 gives us a 2-1 series lead over the Flames...but no celebrating/braggin rights yet, cuz it aint over till the fat lady sings (or until they ban me from all-you-can-eat sushi) so i'll just keep my trap shut till the series is over...
anyways, aside from that, everything's been pretty mellow these days. i've been happy, quite content, must have something to do with the nice potluck dinner last night at the Lester House (mmm...fried rice, pasta, mashed potatoes, chicken, squid, asparagus...and much more...), and those homemade egg tarts at Doug's place tonight...mmmm.... the entire weekend went by and i've done zero studying, so i guess that means i'll have to bust my ass and study like mad for wednesday's social psych final, after which i'll have a few days to cram for next monday's linguistics final, and then i'm done, Done, and DONE!
then it's off to pack and do some final exploring in the 'Loo (biking for bargains), and hopefully do a T.O. trip while there's time? apparently i've been assigned the mission of approaching and conversing with the female employees on "jarvis st."? hmmm...sounds interesting...
so yeah, i'll be bumming around here until the 28th, and i'll be flying out at 730am on the 29th. still haven't figured out a few little details to do with the packing/shipping/transportation stuff, but hopefully that'll all fall into place in the coming weeks. i'm just trying to make sure i pass these last 2 finals, otherwise this won't be my last term after all! alright, enough procrastination, back to work...
woohoo, a 2-1 victory tonight for the Canucks in game 3 gives us a 2-1 series lead over the Flames...but no celebrating/braggin rights yet, cuz it aint over till the fat lady sings (or until they ban me from all-you-can-eat sushi) so i'll just keep my trap shut till the series is over...
anyways, aside from that, everything's been pretty mellow these days. i've been happy, quite content, must have something to do with the nice potluck dinner last night at the Lester House (mmm...fried rice, pasta, mashed potatoes, chicken, squid, asparagus...and much more...), and those homemade egg tarts at Doug's place tonight...mmmm.... the entire weekend went by and i've done zero studying, so i guess that means i'll have to bust my ass and study like mad for wednesday's social psych final, after which i'll have a few days to cram for next monday's linguistics final, and then i'm done, Done, and DONE!
then it's off to pack and do some final exploring in the 'Loo (biking for bargains), and hopefully do a T.O. trip while there's time? apparently i've been assigned the mission of approaching and conversing with the female employees on "jarvis st."? hmmm...sounds interesting...
so yeah, i'll be bumming around here until the 28th, and i'll be flying out at 730am on the 29th. still haven't figured out a few little details to do with the packing/shipping/transportation stuff, but hopefully that'll all fall into place in the coming weeks. i'm just trying to make sure i pass these last 2 finals, otherwise this won't be my last term after all! alright, enough procrastination, back to work...
Thursday, April 08, 2004
buddy's gettin an NSR in a week! i'm jealous, but hey i got steak for tonight so i'm not cryin' about it. speaking of bikes, check out this quote i found while i was flippin through www.bcsportbikes.com:
"Do you know what the two most dangerous words in motorcycling are? 'Watch this'."
lol, i agree. =P
"Do you know what the two most dangerous words in motorcycling are? 'Watch this'."
lol, i agree. =P
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
My new friend: Lobo
So, today started off pretty uneventfully: got up in the morning at 0930to go hand in my final English Assignment, then i biked over to Conestoga, walked around the mall and bought a mother-load of groceries, stuffed 'em all in my bag n then biked home at around 1400.
I made a ton of pasta and pork chops for dinner, ate it, and was just chilling at home, was anticipating going over to Carter's place at 2230 to catch Game 1 of Round 1 of the playoff series betw. the Canucks and the Flames, when i get this call from my housemate at around 2030:
Housemate: Yo raph what u doing?
Raph: uh...not much dude, just kinda reading n stuff, gonna go catch the Canuck's game later tonight. why what's up?
Housemate: uh...dude, can i borrow $60? like do u have cash on u right now?
Raph: what for? i don't got $60 on my here right now...
Housemate: if i take u to a bank machine can u get it today?
Raph: yeah, why?
Housemate: i uh...i went shopping just now, n i was checking out these tattoos at this tattoo place n i saw one that i think i wanna get
Raph: right now?
Housemate: yeah, it's so nice man
Raph: dude...don't u think u can wait for a bit? i mean u can take ur time and decide can't u?
Housemate: but it's really nice dude! i just spent like an hour w/ the guy modifying it n stuff, i wanna get it man, i got $90 on me, n i'm gonna take out $100, so i need another $60. i wanna get it before i go home for the weekend...
Raph: uh...yeah ok. i'll come with you, might as well come check out what they got down there.
Housemate: sweet! k i'll be back to pick u up in like 10 minutes!
(10 minutes later, as i'm meeting him at the front door...)
Housemate: yo, uh hey man...uh...can i uh...borrow $160 instead?
Raph: huh? (raises the eyebrow)
Housemate: yeah...my withdrawal limit for the day's maxed out...
Raph: haaai...alright, yeahyeah let's go...
Soo...yeah, instead of a quiet night at home studying n then watching hockey, i ended up sittin' inside a smoky studio, watching the ink-slinging, cigar chomping "Lobo" (the tattooist, who happens to love the West Coast by the way, and when he found out i was from Vancouver he started telling me all about his plans to move out there to "retire" and open up another shop) carve up my roommate...how lovely. =P
So, today started off pretty uneventfully: got up in the morning at 0930to go hand in my final English Assignment, then i biked over to Conestoga, walked around the mall and bought a mother-load of groceries, stuffed 'em all in my bag n then biked home at around 1400.
I made a ton of pasta and pork chops for dinner, ate it, and was just chilling at home, was anticipating going over to Carter's place at 2230 to catch Game 1 of Round 1 of the playoff series betw. the Canucks and the Flames, when i get this call from my housemate at around 2030:
Housemate: Yo raph what u doing?
Raph: uh...not much dude, just kinda reading n stuff, gonna go catch the Canuck's game later tonight. why what's up?
Housemate: uh...dude, can i borrow $60? like do u have cash on u right now?
Raph: what for? i don't got $60 on my here right now...
Housemate: if i take u to a bank machine can u get it today?
Raph: yeah, why?
Housemate: i uh...i went shopping just now, n i was checking out these tattoos at this tattoo place n i saw one that i think i wanna get
Raph: right now?
Housemate: yeah, it's so nice man
Raph: dude...don't u think u can wait for a bit? i mean u can take ur time and decide can't u?
Housemate: but it's really nice dude! i just spent like an hour w/ the guy modifying it n stuff, i wanna get it man, i got $90 on me, n i'm gonna take out $100, so i need another $60. i wanna get it before i go home for the weekend...
Raph: uh...yeah ok. i'll come with you, might as well come check out what they got down there.
Housemate: sweet! k i'll be back to pick u up in like 10 minutes!
(10 minutes later, as i'm meeting him at the front door...)
Housemate: yo, uh hey man...uh...can i uh...borrow $160 instead?
Raph: huh? (raises the eyebrow)
Housemate: yeah...my withdrawal limit for the day's maxed out...
Raph: haaai...alright, yeahyeah let's go...
Soo...yeah, instead of a quiet night at home studying n then watching hockey, i ended up sittin' inside a smoky studio, watching the ink-slinging, cigar chomping "Lobo" (the tattooist, who happens to love the West Coast by the way, and when he found out i was from Vancouver he started telling me all about his plans to move out there to "retire" and open up another shop) carve up my roommate...how lovely. =P
Monday, April 05, 2004
layin' the korean mackdown
whooo...wrote my first final today, and now i'm finally done with my "han gook" class. i'd say it went fairly well, seeing as how i left about 1/4 of the midterm blank and wound up with 55%, and this time i answered all the questions! that's gotta count for something right?
anyways, let's get to the interesting part of my day: in order to make my korean professor proud, i told myself i'd have to remember all that he'd taught us in class, and to "use it wisely." how fortunate then, that i came across the perfect opportunity to exercise my "han gook" skills, while also meeting a beauuutiful female han gook in the process!
meet:the korean mack
whooo...wrote my first final today, and now i'm finally done with my "han gook" class. i'd say it went fairly well, seeing as how i left about 1/4 of the midterm blank and wound up with 55%, and this time i answered all the questions! that's gotta count for something right?
anyways, let's get to the interesting part of my day: in order to make my korean professor proud, i told myself i'd have to remember all that he'd taught us in class, and to "use it wisely." how fortunate then, that i came across the perfect opportunity to exercise my "han gook" skills, while also meeting a beauuutiful female han gook in the process!
meet:the korean mack
Friday, April 02, 2004
strangers
i think i've been getting shy lately, not as extroverted as i used to be. i used to be able to talk to strangers/people i barely knew quite comfortably, but now i feel that i've sort of lost this social ability of mine (which might not necessarily be a bad thing). i saw this girl in lecture today, in my social psych class. today was the last lecture, but i've seen her before actually, just never really noticed her till today. i think it may be because we always sat in the same general area: left side, somewhere halfway down from the top, near the middle of the row. i never really got a good look at her face (i try not to get in the habit of blatantly checking people out in class, it seems kinda rude actually), but today i noticed her.
she was in the row right in front of mine, about three chairs to my left, and i wanted to to ask her something. i tried to muster up the courage to say something, to just ask her...(i mean the worst thing that could happen is that she'd say no, and i'd have to face getting rejected, but that's not that bad is it?), but i couldn't do it. why? i have no clue. why couldn't i do it? it's not like i would've been doing something like that for the first time, but why couldn't i do it? it's such a simple task...just open your mouth and say it stupid! but no...i chose to stay silent.
*sigh*...like i said, i'd never noticed her before, not until today. she had something today that she didn't have before, something that got my attention. i could hear it, i could see it, i could almost even taste it! this girl, this stranger that i'd never spoken to, she had something that i wanted, and all i had to do was take a chance and ask her! but i chickened out....and now i'll never know if she would've given me a piece of her skor bar. =(
well, to end the day off on a positive note, i DID decide to overcome this feeling of not being able to talk to strangers anymore, and i managed to talk to some dude i never met (i think he's new in town), although it was only a very brief conversation, and now that i think about it...it didn't end off all that great either...but the point is, i managed to overcome my shyness and i talked to the dude! now what did this conversation look like? well, unlike the previous FAILURE you just read, this time you can have some visuals! meet: the immigrant
i think i've been getting shy lately, not as extroverted as i used to be. i used to be able to talk to strangers/people i barely knew quite comfortably, but now i feel that i've sort of lost this social ability of mine (which might not necessarily be a bad thing). i saw this girl in lecture today, in my social psych class. today was the last lecture, but i've seen her before actually, just never really noticed her till today. i think it may be because we always sat in the same general area: left side, somewhere halfway down from the top, near the middle of the row. i never really got a good look at her face (i try not to get in the habit of blatantly checking people out in class, it seems kinda rude actually), but today i noticed her.
she was in the row right in front of mine, about three chairs to my left, and i wanted to to ask her something. i tried to muster up the courage to say something, to just ask her...(i mean the worst thing that could happen is that she'd say no, and i'd have to face getting rejected, but that's not that bad is it?), but i couldn't do it. why? i have no clue. why couldn't i do it? it's not like i would've been doing something like that for the first time, but why couldn't i do it? it's such a simple task...just open your mouth and say it stupid! but no...i chose to stay silent.
*sigh*...like i said, i'd never noticed her before, not until today. she had something today that she didn't have before, something that got my attention. i could hear it, i could see it, i could almost even taste it! this girl, this stranger that i'd never spoken to, she had something that i wanted, and all i had to do was take a chance and ask her! but i chickened out....and now i'll never know if she would've given me a piece of her skor bar. =(
well, to end the day off on a positive note, i DID decide to overcome this feeling of not being able to talk to strangers anymore, and i managed to talk to some dude i never met (i think he's new in town), although it was only a very brief conversation, and now that i think about it...it didn't end off all that great either...but the point is, i managed to overcome my shyness and i talked to the dude! now what did this conversation look like? well, unlike the previous FAILURE you just read, this time you can have some visuals! meet: the immigrant
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